Well, that didn’t go like I had planned….in my head. Again, I waited patiently for him to come to bed. I don’t remember how the conversation started, but basically he agrees I spoke disrespectfully to him, argued and talked back. So yes, I broke a resolution/goal for submission. Those facts we agreed on but that was it. We agreed to disagree on the original cause of my disrespect. So, agreeing and acknowledging my transgressions was all he had to say. What? No discipline? Are you kidding me!?! What about my reporting to him and he holding me accountable? He did not want to punish me because somehow after my confession and discussion, he would feel like a sh*t head if he spanked me now. Eventually I twisted his arm but only because it was our regular maintenance night.
I’m so disappointed 😔I really thought we were headed in a D/s direction. We were at one of the kids tournaments yesterday and he’s been gone all today. A little while ago, I picked up our journal and resolution chart and made an entry and filled in the chart. I basically told him I was disappointed and why. If he doesn’t want to try…sort-of- kind of – if – that’s what you want to call it/relationship, than just tell me so I can forget this and my submission. Geez, this is ridiculous! Sorry to ramble on but this my only outlet 😞